"I regret you all the time" is one of the most heartbreaking lyrics ever and the way she sings it, we can feel the despair in her voice.

Goosebumps

💀☠️☠️

Living it is even worse

I know !

Something tells me, I want to hear a 10 minute version of this. It would get too heavy, but I really wanna hear.

FR

I'll not emotionally recover

@Liji satheesh that my favorite on the album....

@Jessica Antonucci umm- of vigilante shit? I think ill pass...

I've seen a lot of talk about the 'give me back my girlhood" line, but the one that really gets me is "If I was some paint did it splatter / On a promising grown man". The twist on the famous "promising young man" line that is used to help abusers and all get away with everything is so clever, because she removes the "youth" factor, highlighting the age gap and imbalance in power, and it shows she never could have hurt him as much as he did back then

Taylor Swift is a lyrical genius.

Yup, it's also a critique about when she came out with her first song about him. She got a lot of hate for it saying it would damage his reputation/career. Forgoing the fact that he was a grown man with a history of dating young women and this behavior was nothing new to him.

I think that all the lyrics are amazing and fascinating within themselves.

she was really in love with John

R.

This is one of her best songs in her entire discography. I love it sooo much. I hope she will sings this at the Eras Tour. It’s getting less attention because it’s not on the original 13 tracks of the album. But I think it has the most numbers of views among the 3am tracks. I hope it will gain popularity close to All Too Well.

This is definitely one of her best. And gets better every time I play it. How is that possible? The woman is talented, we just never knew how very talented.

I find this song very intense. Not only are her words intense, but Aaron's production really intensified everything in it. Great duo of artists, beautiful work of art.

Exactly!!!!

she is definitely not singing this song ever

is anyone selling any tickets to Eras Tour for Santa Clara or L.A.? I'm really looking to buy💖

unpopular opinion: this is the best song of the album

It's a masterpiece

This is my favorite song of the album as well and I completely agree with you :)

@Αγγελινα -Α. I rank it #19 out of 20 lol

yess!!

@Shawna Comis Im a new swiftie so dear jhon isnt as like iconic to me tbh I prefer this

People continue to have the audacity to say shit like "all she does is write about her past relationships to stay relevant". This comment section alone proves how important it is for influential people such as Taylor to reflect and share their experiences to educate/comfort their following. The impact of this song is massive. Anyone who has been in a grooming situation, dysfunctional relationship, and so many other situations feels this song so deeply. It's not Taylor dissing JM for some views. It's her being deeply honest about a painful situation in her life, and sharing it with as as a warning, solidarity, etc etc. So so much respect to her for putting this out despite the inevitable backlash it would face.

Whatever you do on the internet, if enough people see it, there are people who will hate on it. I'm sure Taylor is used to that by now, but still, it takes a lot to share something like this knowing that.

@Ankita M lol I actually just screen shot this comment and posted it on my Facebook lol

@Yugandhar Janardhan way to completely miss the point,they're not saying she doesn't write any songs about past relationships just that she doesn't write them to stay relevent she wouldn't need to she's the freaking music industry but she wrote this song because she reflected on that expirence and probably realized she was the same age he was when he dated her and would never get with anyone that as young as 19 and wrote it as soliderity to people who had went through a similar situation

Well this song is about ex/her last relationship, isn't it?

This is exactly it what i think we need art sometime just to understand if someone has gone through the same.

“Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first” is giving me chills

It broke me😢

What it means?

@Luxmundee they did in the miss Americana thing they said it

it gives me chills too and it’s the only one i’ve ever had do that

Ikr, my older sister has an ex that she broke up with a little over a year ago, and he really made me feel important when no one else did, and now I don't even miss him, I just want back all the time I've wasted being devastated and heartbroken, I'm literally 14. He took my first heartbreak away from me

"Memories feel like weapons" Yeah, they do..

That's a perfect piece of poetic justice/injustice...depending. The whole song is really well written. Her lyrics are always so uniquely special, hitting above or below...and we like this.

Perfectly said by Taylor

This left "All too Well" behind. The pain is 100x more in this one as compared to All too Well. The fact that Taylor still hasn't fully healed from that relationship tells how toxic it was. I want to say sry to her that she had to suffer this much. Mad respect for her for being so happy despite her experiences

I think those are different relationships, but she wrote about this one in Dear John before...

@Zenon me 2nd cardigan and 3rd cruel suummer personally

​@Liji satheesh Well ATW specially the 10 minute version is for far the greatest song of Taylor, I mean you could have your own opinion but for a lot of people ATW is the GOAT, personally I will go with Mirrorball for the second and New Romantics as the third best one.

@Liji satheesh no

now im confused i thought all to well was the best song xD

i was 15, he was 40 something and my best friends dad. this song perfectly captures how i feel after all of it. i don’t think i’ll ever get over it but hey at least i have this song to help me cope. honestly a masterpiece, i’m in love with it, thank you for sharing this with us taylor.

​@no not really ?

Spicy😳

i’m so sorry that happened to you. i seriously hope you’re okay ❤️

Omg im so sorry this happened to you

@Alissa J. I dont how they dared or had the audacity

I've always said that I can't pick a favorite song when it comes to Taylor's music... But this, this is it. This is quite possibly her best song ever.

YES

I think Tears Ricochet is her best.

I agree

The "should've" part is not here in this song. That part is back in "dear John". I'm in love with this woman's writing and how she intertwines her lyrics new and old to tell these stories

@lekshmi sreee john mayer, basically

13th reply

Two people with 13 likes, please don't mess this 🖐️🖐️🖐️

@StealMySpotlight "you should've been sad instead of being so mean / [...] I shouldn't leave you messages in every little song" -> I really dont think this is for Taylor, I dont think she was mean, but rather sad, and John's written other stuff about Katy Perry. John's song for Taylor is Paper Doll. I agree with you, you never know, but in this case I really don't think so

@Davi Neuskens you never know!

This song is for all women with sincere intentions who, at a younger age, got predated on and manipulated by older men who knew exactly what they were doing. We were young and it was never our fault. Everything will eventually be alright. ❤

Aw don’t say that ❤

They dont even have to be older mine was just wise bound his years an manipulative i didn't realise what he was doing to me untill after it was over

@oh the misery truth 🙌

as someone that had their childhood stolen from bullying and family problems and their teenage years stolen from mental health issues, this song hits right in the heart, right where it hurts the most; so painful, but so therapeutic at the same time. Thank you Taylor, from the bottom of my heart.

@Emma Guidi sending you lots of love as well thank you

@Damien Raye totally feel you, the feeling of missing out on so much and having taken away what would've, could've, should've been yours because of something that was not in your control... sending you lots of love.

Literally exactly my case 😭 bullying and so many issues from developed PTSD that further created even more trauma and I lost myself, my career for a while, and missed out on so much... right here with you on this one

As someone who lost their innocence at five 'give me back my girlhood it was mine first' had me sobbing on my floor with my hand over my mouth (no this isn't an exaggeration)

Five? Holy shit. This song really did nothing for me but I hope you are doing well.

💔

omg im so sorry :( hope you are healing, such as getting help like going to therapy

this one specific line is where i repeatedly keep breaking down.

I hope you're at peace....i know just how you feel

"And now that I'm grown, I'm scared of ghosts, memories feel like weapons." Every trauma survivor knows this feeling: the flashbacks (ghosts) continue to haunt you throughout your life, and the memories of what happened to you continue to hurt you over and over again.

As a divorcee at 19, married at 18 with a man who was 30 years older than me. I was lost and thought that he would be my savior. This song hits too deeply.

♡ Lolita ♡ Goodness! What?!

@Eselcool Absolutely.

@Zahie ah okay, no bad feelings then? i have a hard time picking up on tone in comments lol- the situation the original commenter was in is so terrible, and i 100% agree that her loved ones should've taken action. i hope she's in a much better situation now

@Eselcool Absolutely NOT!!! Adults are responsible for this! How did her family accept this? How did the authorities not investigate it? She was obviously a victim and abused !!!

Omg I hope you're better ❤️

“and now that I know, I wish you left me wondering,” is such an underrated line

I thought the same! Such a quality line !

This is definitely my favorite song on the album, maybe even one of my top ten songs of hers of all time. It’s so raw and vulnerable and emotional and real.

2nd worst song on the album

It’s honestly right below all too well for me.

samee

100%

💯💯💯

I need a 10 minute version of this

Out of every Taylor song, this is not one I care about getting a 10MV

No, we need sixty minutes of every Taylor song 😭😭

Yes.

Make this a single, release an MV, promote it, and this will be the Song of the Year on the Grammys 2024, Ms. Taylor 🤍

You guys are so right!

it's the best song she ever written 😭

I thought the Grammys were all about teenage music being artificially raised to the level of fine arts... So I guess they wouldn't do it but I do agree this song needs more promotion, and many others in Midnights! I wanted to see her live playing these songs!!!

Maybe we will get a mv on 2032🙂

we all know she wont. Instead, have 20 versions of anti hero. the best midnight songs are the bonus tracks

Wow this is powerful! This feels like it's about John Mayer, especially with the "nineteen." This song and Dear John are definitely poignant, hard-hitting songs. They shed light on how toxic and manipulative older men can be and why young women should speak out about it. I hope she can heal one day.

Just realised how ironic it is that my narcissistic ex is a huge JM fan...

@Rain listen to Dear John and you will understand the story

Nah its about her selling her soul

It’s definitely about J*hn M*yer

All I can say is, Thank You Taylor, I can scream this song at the top of my lungs and finally have a way to get this all out. I’m sure there are so many of us feeling the same way going through that same haunting ghost feeling

We do

the angst? vulnerability? rawness? lyricism? production? ++ the key change at the end ?!?! THIS SONG WILL FOREVER HAVE ME IN A CHOKEHOLD

Taylor Swift, master of goose bump causing lyrics 😻

Repent to Jesus Christ “On the last and greatest day of the festival, Jesus stood and said in a loud voice, “Let anyone who is thirsty come to me and drink. Whoever believes in me, as Scripture has said, rivers of living water will flow from within them.”” ‭‭John‬ ‭7‬:‭37‬-‭38‬ ‭NIV‬‬ I

The transition between "I should've known" in Dear John and the rage you can feel in this song is something definitely cathartic. My heart goes to anyone who's lived something like this: it wasn't up to you, it wasn't your fault. I just can't accept how much this world still is a terrible place and how often victims are left alone... but no matter how some predator or people in a position of authority who choose to do nothing about it make you feel, you're not helpless and your voice cannot be silenced.

+

“give me back my girlhood, it was mine first” yeah. same. the way her voice sounds. so raw. the fact so many young woman can realize to these lyrics, i mean, i can. and i’m only 12.

@Sweet1919 #zagstoptheleaks yes, thank you.

I’m so sorry. I hope you are doing well ❤️‍🩹

oh poor baby.. i was 15 when it happened to me, & im 19 now and barely begun to accept it. i cant imagine how hard it must be on you. sending so much love!!

I hope you're doing well💗

💔 I hope you are safe and have support. If not, I pray that you will!

This is the best song ever written. If you've ever been in a similar situation, it hits home in so many ways, but even if you haven't - i assume - you can't help but feel this. It's just too real and full of emotion.

@YodaWars 1000 thank you

@Nanna Sørensen I’m really sorry that you had to go through that. And of course we can have different opinions :)

@YodaWars 1000 well that's subjective, I think :) This song really resonnates with me personally (but I also relate to the source material, as I had a sort of similar experience pretty recently, and that really adds a layer to it). I respect that we all have different opinions.

Not the best song ever written at all. She’s written so many better songs.

“I miss who I used to be, the tomb won’t close” might be the line that gets me most. It’s nearly acceptance, but hope is somehow still there - hope that you can somehow be that person again. Another triumphant song by Taylor.

what a mind. she really put a lyrics that pin point what you cannot even say. she really get wiser now that shes older

@Cameron help?

She's not older, because She has this thing where she gets older but just never wiser

I was 19, he was 31 and married, expecting me to save him from his marriage... this song calling 19 a child puts so much things in perspective after almost 10 years later. Taylor's songs are therapy.

It makes me feel so much better because I was 14 and I always felt like I was too old to not have know better

@Fay Coleman thank you for your advice ❤️

@19 Thảo My I think it really depends, on the dynamic. But you should be careful either way. Don't let let him control/influence important aspects of your life (finances, school or friends) cause then you end up stuck.

Yup, I don't have a big issue with legal age gaps typically, but it really depends on the stages of life the people are and if they have power over the other person in some way. I dated a 23 year old 19. I wasn't anywhere ready for the mess that was that relationship. Even with the small age gap he had way more experiences than I did and the relationship wasn't balanced at all.

I was 23 and he was 34. So not really a child on my end, but to him I was. He thought I would save him but I wasn’t going to sit quiet and wait.

she’s always written about serious topics yet since folklore came out her songs have felt so much for intimate, stabbing me in the heart like no other artist can.

Everyone talks about "give me back my girlhood it was mine first", but no one talks about "and now that I know, I wish you'd left me wondering". The thought that comes to your mind when you found out something you wish you never knew.

When people were saying the red scarf was a metaphor for her losing her virginity. And I was like, "She dated John Mayer first so chances are it didn't survive that." And I think this song proves it. Narcissists really do damage to your mind.

That's something private that only Taylor knows about, I don't think it should be brought up and discussed on the internet.

@stephanie I was bringing it up only because everyone lost their damn mind bringing it up in regards to Jake. I thought it was weird and ridiculous but if we’re gonna go there, I’d say it’s far more likely it was John Mayer and the lyrics to this seem to heavily imply it. Like losing her girlhood and she mentions her age again so everybody knows it was John Mayer she’s singing about. 🤣

I don’t think we should discuss that either way. It’s inappropriate to discuss something that personal regarding her body

I’m thinking after John Mayer maybe she waited longer to be intimate with jake especially because of the age gap, I’m guessing the second they went to that level he left her. It would make since why she was so upset with Jake because he probably knew the stuff she went through with John and basically did the exact same thing. Although after listening to dear john which talks about the age gap, I wonder what made her get into another age gap relationship.

@Seaweed Brain but also literal since he was seen with her scarf 💃

“Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts/Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first” breaks me every time, because while in her song it applies to a lost lover, in a lot of situations, it can apply to an abuser, and holy cow does it resonate

this song got me curious so i dug around a bit. after reading about the number of times he flipped his opinions on the songs she wrote about him, she was right when she called him out for being emotionally manipulative then and now. her narrative and views are consistent. meanwhile, his song about her was just the lazy trope of "my girlfriend is crazy" lol.

@l i e n h o a just search taylor swift john mayer

Can u give me some links pls? I want to read abt that too

“Memories feel like weapons…” She somehow manages to write entire novels with just one sentence. I genuinely believe she’s one of the most important & best song writers of all time.

@Dr. SL Anderson she will be remembered as THE greatest of all time ⏲️ ....that's a fact I'm her ghost 👻 writer

Glad to see that this song is well loved! Most underrated in the album fr!

@FatherOfLights88 - That’s a beautiful way of saying it! I wholeheartedly agree ❤️

She's distilling several decades worth of emotional history, through music, into a single and pure expression. This track has an entire era of music contained within its 4+ minutes

Very powerful ❤

This song right here is the entire reason for the 3AM version. This song HAD to be track 19. Knowing Taylor everything was designed around this song. Bravo. A fantastic song. One of her best.

I have heard every lyric she has ever has written I do not believe any lyric can ever come near the pain and the rawness of “Give me back my girlhood it was my first” This hurts this song hurts . We love you Taylor.

"Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts" is giving me goosebumps.

It's crazy how songs can have a whole different meaning for others. I lost my best friend recently to drugs and we met when I was 19. As terrible as it may sound, sometimes I regret ever meeting him because of how painful it's been to live without him. The amount of love I had for him and time we spent being so damn close... there's a lot of would've, could've, and should've in my head since last month happened. I miss you Alex ❤

I’ve been a hot and cold fan of Taylor, but this new album is incredible. I love the raw honesty. Taylor, I am so sorry you were hurt in this way. You deserve someone who loves you and isn’t looking to use or take advantage of you.

This is some all too well masterclass songwriting. It WRECKED me

@Swiftie ❤️ same, at my first listen I could really imagine Conan Gray singing thisssss especially during bridge part

And it improves on all too well in every way too.

Is it just me or this actually sounds like a song that Conan Gray would sing? I mean I feel like I can hear his voice, especially in the chorus and the bridge

SAAAAAAAME. One of my favorites of all time.

@Zehra Shafqat Yes. Don't you think 19's too young to be messed with, right? :(((

Taylor Swift has outdone herself in this song. The lyrics amazingly captures regret we have later in life. I love the line "I wish you had left me wondering". So many times because of our curiosity when we are young and impressionable we end up being around people who affect the rest of our lives in a traumatic way even if they were there for just a short time. They carry on with their lives but they change ours.

"Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first..." Stunned by her lyricism again. This woman is truly a musical genius. I don't know how anyone could at the very least, not recognize her extraordinary talents.

Definitely the most powerful song on the album. Maybe even the most powerful song in her whole career

This is truly my favourite song she’s ever done. Which is obviously saying a lot. I literally feel like she wrote about my life exactly to a tee. It’s kind of really chilling

This song is so chilling, haunting and disturbing in the most beautifully tragic way ever. I don’t think Taylor has ever written a song like this. This doesn’t feel like All Too Well or Dear John. This is…like a violation.

I'll know as a dude, I'll never truly understand what it's like to be a young girl/woman who gets preyed on by men and has her innocence stolen like that, but this song did its best to make me feel it, and it worked. This broke my heart, and now I'm wiping away tears. Don't ever stop writing Taylor

Thank you for this comment ❤ that is All we ask is that you try to understand! Like others have said, young men get preyed upon as well but I’m glad to see that you took the message that was portrayed in this song which is a young woman having her innocence stolen by a man almost twice her age who just got to wash their hands and walk away like nothing happened, while she’s left with all this healing to do.

@andresweet someone will say the same about you age is nothing to pick on someone for

Men only care about this issue when they have daughters.

@cici stephen very true. Listen to Rod Stewart’s “Maggie May”.

@lilith hope what

The girlhood line is very powerful AND painful. But I think the part around 3:50 is severely underrated. She's musically screaming, repeating herself because no one heard her. Crying for help.

I’m so grateful for this song. I’m almost 35 and have gotten away from my abuser for 8 years now and it’s therapeutic to see that the feelings I have remaining are normal. Taylor I loved you before but if I didn’t I would love you for this. Thank you thank you THANK YOU.

It's been almost a year since he dropped me like an unnecessary object and this song just hits all the spots... I've been through therapy, I've built myself from the ruins he left me at, but the wound just won't close still. I regret you all the time.

The line about memories feeling like weapons speaks to many of us who wish we could forget about certain things, but that isn’t how things are. A very great song by the queen, Taylor Swift 💜👏

This has to be a single and has to have an MV next year. 🥺 This will be a no. 1 hit!

I hope it is

How this wasn't part of the 13 Midnights tracks blows my mind, it's a lyrical masterpiece

Ikr, this song is beautiful, tragic and so powerful

Because unlike the other 12am songs, she really stayed up longer until 3am due to her trauma that her virginity was taken from her at the age of 19, so she just wished she would've, could've, should've met him (John Mayer)

It doesn’t fit the sound but it’s perfect as a bonus track

I feel like it made it even more impactful since we had all listened to the original 13, and then had that pause to process and then this one came out and it hit all of us like a truck

3 am hits stronger than 12 am I think it was all about the concept I mean 12 am songs are more love the doubt and 3 am songs is pain something that you are feeling in all your body.

Getting chills no matter how many times I've listened 🤲💘

This is undeniably one of her best written songs/tunes/ballads... And is growing on me still... Haunting, and filled with so many emotions. Makes me wonder how she keeps finding her way to writing another masterpiece. Does she know how well received this one truly is?? (I'm much too old to be this impressed, but I am.)❤

I was never physically abused at all. But emotionally I was. I was 19 and in a very bad place mentally and emotionally. He was 28. He knew exactly what to say and do to take advantage of how deeply I loved him and I still battle with loving the ghost of what I prayed we could've had. I don't know yet how to shed the pain enough to love again. Or to trust. He stole so much from me. Took what I gave willingly and threw it back in my face when I wouldn't let him mold me into something I couldn't be. He took what little innocence an already old soul had left and I struggle every day with the self worth issues giving myself away to someone who didn't cherish the gift left me with. This song hits deeply in a beautiful painful way

I’m obsessed with this song, it’s written in such a beautiful and personal way, the story is heartbreaking😭

SCREAMING AND CRYING THIS IS A MASTERPIECE

As a child SA survivor ‘give me back my girlhood it was mine first’ hits so deep . She’s managed to perfectly capture the way so many victims deal with their trauma :often at night when they’re alone and everything that’s been repressed surfaces when you Just want it to leave your memory . I’ve never cried listening to a song but this one has me sobbing every time I listen, I fully resonate with the lyrics in the song . As usual Taylor has written a hauntingly beautiful masterpiece.

Same here. I got SA'ed too :(

Same, it hits so hard, i feel like ive been punched. hope you are doing well.

@Vinista the song was written before they were together. They dated while Red was being promoted/released

RIGHT

Same here, I love how this song describes so much

“I regret you all the time” absolutely destroyed me

i don't think i've ever experienced something like what taylor is describing, but this song managed to make me cry so many times. the pain in the lyrics and her voice gave me chills.

I love it when Taylor really digs deep into pain, but holy... some of those tracks... Every time someone calls her work superficial, overrated pop you just know they never listened in the first place.

wow the raw emotions in this song 😢

esta canción se la dedico al covid :) gracias covid por hacerme saber que es una depresión gracias por robarme 3 años de una infancia increíble gracias a ti perdí muchas amistades gracias por arrebatarme mi ilusión de niñez y ponerme la realidad en mis ojos extraño a mi yo de antes... si no fuera por ti aun estaría viva pd: todo lo que leyeron es real amigos 😢

I can’t believe All Too Well isn’t my favourite song anymore.

OMG same

​@Gïlda Nonofyabiznez ikr

this song deserves the top spot of every taylor list

FOR REAL

I literally was just thinking the same thing reading these comments I can’t decideeee

"I miss who I used to be" is exactly what I told my friend after I got out of a relationship with a man 2 years older than me in which I was groomed, manipulated, and gaslighted. I was only 17. I wish I could get back my girlhood that he stole from me. I've never commented on a youtube video before, but this song resonates with me on such a profound level. I've never heard a song that so perfectly describes the pain left over after someone hurts you like that. Everyone I've told says things like "thank goodness you're not in that relationship anymore." But I'm still living with the aftermath of it every day. I want everyone who has been through similar experiences to know that it was not your fault and that you're not alone.

Finally a song from beginning to end that I can say happened to me. 54 years old and he still can invade my mind. I hate it.

literal chills. one of my favorite songs she wrote.

This song makes everyone who has been through trauma of any kind feel something

This song breaks my heart, what an elegance Taylor's to compose ... we have all been manipulated as young women by older men,thanks Taylor 💜🎶

"Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first" this line hits so hard

@Felicia fr, even thou I’m a boy, but I was innocent….😭😭

@Vendita I feel like it's jake ab more

I broke down on this line....she somehow even sounds so little in that moment....

@Deniz wouldnt you tho? that pain sticks forever its not easy to let it go like that

@Vendita after all these years she still regrets?

This song has a huge place in my heart

“Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts” Such a delicious line

"I regret you all the time" hits me hard

This is the song I skipped since the album came out, now I can't stop listening to it

The darkest song so far yet beautifully created by her!

"Now that I know, I wish you'd left me wondering" is the lyric that hits me. I love how this song captures the nuance/complexity of having some fault for pursuing an attraction to someone who's bad for you, while also holding the truth that, based on situational factors such as power dynamics, that person should never have reciprocated that attraction if they'd been ethical and responsible.

@EWall1498 Amen!

@Mikea This line is my favorite too and I interpret it in pretty much the same way. “Fault” is a trigger word that isn’t really needed, but I agree that the gist seems to be a young girl expressing interest in an older man while not realizing that any older man who reciprocates is likely to be very bad for her. So yeah, wondering what it would be like to be with this guy and wishing he’d never shown you.

@Mikea Well if your original comment reflects your personal experience, please realize that you DON'T share any of the fault for someone taking advantage of you. There is no perfect victim, and anyone who has ever been preyed on struggles with blaming themselves. The John Mayers of the world don't deserve our forgiveness, but the Taylors deserve to forgive ourselves.

yas

@sharksandsheep You could be right. I don't know the details of the relationship it was written about, so I'm interpreting the lyrics through the lens of my own life experiences while acknowledging I have incomplete information.

For me, she's not just a singer. She's an artist, a remarkable poet even. If you read her lyrics as poems, you'd feel the same way.

One of Taylor's best songs of all time

@lekshmi sreeeregret

What is this song is about

the repeating lyrics esp at the end with increased intensity really reflects how her bad memories keep on coming back no matter how much she ignores, or pushes it away. people keep saying how she should move on already and not talk about her exes but actually its not her exes she's talking about but her own experiences that keep on bothering her for years no matter how much she sings or talk about it. these kinds of memories just never go away easily.

four months later and I still get goosebumps from this song

Taylor, i am a survivor of SA. thank you for helping me heal.

sending so much love to you.

❤❤❤❤

I am soooo sorry 😣 You should have never have gone through that 😢😢😢

As someone who experienced heartbreak and used Dear John and ATW to heal at a young age, this song hits differently. All the regret for the trauma it caused and how it messes with your healthy relationship even still now. “Now that I’m grown I’m scared of the ghosts, memories feel like weapons….. miss who I used to be” 😭 it’s so frustrating to have those intrusive thoughts and memories come in even though you’re with someone safe.

Someone explain please

@MixedFish TRUE

You're never safe

@Kathy Downing if Taylor swift isn’t over it 13 years later, I think it’s ok that I’m not either.

@Mal Mal EMDR, with a Clinician that is at least certified if not consultant. Or somatic experiencing. There are ways to get past this but it’s not always easy

Felt this song in my soul. Lived it myself.

1:28 "and if you never saved me from boredom, I could've gone on as I was" I relate here so much.

"Memories feel like weapons"💔

Highlight of the lyrics to me "Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts, give me back my girlhood it was mine first"

The only word I can use to describe this: Goosebumps

I know Taylor will never see this but I want to say thank you for this song. I know this song is about that relationship when she dated a 32 year old guy. But as a 20 year old who was SA'd as a child and never got over it, these lyrics just hit me and I couldn't stop crying. I felt seen and though I already relate to so many of Taylor's song, I felt like this one is mine. So, thank you, Taylor.

I totally understand you!! This song immediately made me think of my SA as a child too

OMG thank you for your coment, now i know i am not alone. Exactly same to all that you sayd... i think im going to have to take this to my therapist.

Same, you gave words to my thoughts.. lots of love to everyone 🤍🤍

Same here. It hits so incredibly hard. I was exactly 19, dating a 29 year old. I had to hide it from everyone, especially my parents. It's mindblowingly terrifying. It reminds me of the line from dear John saying "wondering which version of you I would get on the phone tonight..." He was a master manipulator. So glad I made it out alive Love to everyone in this comment section. You're not alone. None of us are. ♡

Sending you lots of love 💙

This song is definitely not on the main album because John doesn’t deserve to be the focus of her masterpiece that is Midnights. Keep crushing it, girl.

honestly this might be my favourite track on the whole album. so so beautifully written especially the bridge… i really feel like this is one of her most emotive songs and the exploration of darker themes like this feels new and captivating. midnights is one of her best bodies of work fr

Here today, 26.1.23, for a very specific reason. playing it on loop at 2x speed all day. xoxo

This is my favorite on the album. I relate to it deeply and makes me want to cry when I hear it.

This is the best song in midnight

"Living for the thrill of hitting you where it hurts Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first." The way this can relate to so many young women breaks my heart. A beautifully painful poetic description of a sadly common occurrence. Taylor knows just how to express the melancholic regret and suppressed anger of one who has experienced this, as she did herself.

this bridge is so visceral it gave me chills, its almost bizarre

yes :(

The brigde is one of the best. It gives the same vibe as my tears ricochet. I just love it when taylor screams.

why do i love 3am tracks. cant let go of folklore era maybe

Folklore was sublime! A very special body of work but she can't tour off folklore. It doesn't work for stadiums however Midnights does but yes, I agree with you.

Sé por qué la escribió Taylor, pero yo le doy otra interpretación según mi vida. Conocí a este tipo hace algún tiempo, estaba enamoradisima aunque nunca le hablé, no lo volví a ver en como 3 años. Lo vuelvo a encontrar este mismo año, caigo redondo, ni siquiera hablamos, pero me obsesione con él como nunca, no había ni existía ningún chico que me atrajera tanto. Deje todo, no prestaba atención a mis clases, amigos, demás relaciones, todo lo olvidaba por él, sin embargo, nunca pude hablarle. No sé, pero cuando escuché esta canción, me doy cuenta del daño que me hizo sin siquiera saberlo, porque yo solo tengo 19 y no quería bailar con el diablo para cambiar mi vida a algo que nunca fui y jamás quiero repetir. Siento que lo odio aún cuando no me hizo nada. Devuélveme mi niñez, porque si hubiera sabido el final, no te hubiera girado a ver de nuevo. Odio la maldita sensación que se repite y repite al saber la decepción de la misma idealización que yo le di, porque de verdad, verlo o estar cerca, se sentía como el maldito cielo. Y sigo extrañando con todo mi ser a quién fui antes de él.